Re: The Ima no Kimochi wa nani?! or What are you feeling RIGHT NOW?! PART 9

by **Lerena** Wed Sep 28, 2016 10:49 am

Annoyed. Would depression quit destroying my credibility? I'm trying to be an adult here and nothing I do seems to keep the depression from coming back.

Update: I'm feeling fine again. Don't ignore your emotional needs. It's a bad idea.

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Mon Oct 03, 2016 11:28 pm

Accomplished! Fixed my VCR after it's nasty hiccup. After 17 years, it decided to break on me. Good thing I can still repair outdated technology. X3

by **Lerena** Mon Oct 24, 2016 8:35 pm

Annoyed. Apparently I can't do anything in peace today.

by **ShadowMikoto** Wed Oct 26, 2016 9:50 pm

I feel calm. :3

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Wed Nov 02, 2016 8:42 pm

Feeling exhausted, but awesome. The holidays have been relentless with their work hours thus far, but when I get home, it's all about me, baby! FUN TIMES!!!! Feels

by **Lerena** Tue Nov 08, 2016 12:19 pm

Scared, anxious, etc. Today will forever change my life. It will be the day that determines how stupid the people in my country are.

by **ShadowMikoto** Tue Nov 08, 2016 12:23 pm

I feel tired... but not in an emotionally or mentally draining way. I just feel like I can't keep my eyes open today, despite having strong coffee earlier this morning.

by **Bluholic711** Thu Nov 10, 2016 9:51 pm

Depressed. And emotionally exhausted. Like...just screw it. I don't care anymore. I can't turn back time. Though I wish I could.

Welcome to hell on America, everybody. The new president is going to doom us all.

by **ShadowMikoto** Fri Nov 11, 2016 10:21 am

Calm, but also emotionally exhausted. It feels like one of those rainy Friday's lol Oh wait! It is a rainy Friday!

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Sat Nov 12, 2016 5:29 pm

Bluholic711 wrote:Depressed. And emotionally exhausted. Like...just screw it. I don't care anymore. I can't turn back time. Though I wish I could.

Welcome to hell on America, everybody. The new president is going to doom us all.

He already has. Look around you. He said it was okay to step on women, and attack anyone who isn't white.

Donald Duck will meet a most worthy demise one of these days. Until then, we will not back down and continue to stand up for the oppressed and most of all - continue to troll the shit out of his butthurt supporters. Feels

by **Lerena** Sun Nov 27, 2016 3:05 am

Calmer than calm. Some of it is probably from being tired and the rest of the calmness I can't explain. I mean, I've been Enraged McAngry for the past two weeks or something. And no, I don't think the anger is gone. This could be the calm before the storm. If I'm lucky, I might be able to get professional help before I do something stupid, but even if I do my psychiatrist is full of shit for not taking me seriously when I said my energy levels were inconsistent. "That's been going on for a while now," my ass. Now he HAS to do something, because I'm depressed as a result of having inconsistent energy levels, and if I wasn't so angry when I saw him last, I probably would have explained I needed help then. Still, I really hope I can see him sometime next week. It's torture waiting for someone to take me seriously but not to the extent they throw me into the mental house.

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Sun Nov 27, 2016 6:47 pm

Feeling cold. >3< And winter hasn't even officially begun! November to March is the absolute worst time..

by **Lerena** Tue Nov 29, 2016 6:25 pm

I can't believe I'm about to say this. I really can't believe what's about to come out of my mouth.

I'm starting to appreciate being so angry right now, because I'm less afraid of my opinions and I can say what's on my mind without censoring myself, not that everything I say is me holding back. Sometimes I just get kind of self-conscious about things and it's a bit refreshing to be angry long enough to change something instead of just ranting but then not changing the problem. I'll acknowledge it's not a good thing to be in this position. It's definitely not. However, being angry for this long means I get to do something about it and I like that.

On the other hand, I'm still not a fan of my psychiatrist brushing off my inconsistent energy like it's not something that needs to be addressed. And yea, I still wish that I was able to do NaNo, but having my anger last a while at least indicates the level of seriousness that I'm dealing with here. I'm not just angry over someone not closing the refrigerator properly (just a weird example even though I have never actually been angry about this). I'm not just angry that someone from McDonald's didn't give me the sauce I wanted with my chicken nuggets.

This is a real and very serious problem and I can't ignore my feelings anymore, not when my anger is refusing to fade without being properly expressed.

Anyway, I'm not doing NaNo next year. I may or may not end up writing 50,000 words next November, but I'm not going to be trying. If I end up doing it, I can update my word count, but I decided years ago that in 2017 I would take a break from it.

by **Break String SpinElf** Sun Dec 11, 2016 8:29 pm

Elated. Well, happy enough. Strangely disappointed, however, at the same time.

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Tue Dec 13, 2016 9:39 pm

Feeling excited! Just got my Thursday night ticket for Star Wars Rogue One. The prequel I've always wanted!

by **Lerena** Thu Dec 15, 2016 12:49 pm

Pleased that I've finally collected all the Zygarde cells and cores but still pissed off. I just want my boyfriend to accept that I've played enough Pokemon and that I need a break before I snap. I've been pushed past my limits just because he thought that a break from the game meant I was going to stop playing it. This is not the case; I just want to write, because contrary to popular belief, writing is still an important creative outlet for me.

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Sun Dec 18, 2016 8:53 pm

Lerena wrote:Pleased that I've finally collected all the Zygarde cells and cores but still pissed off. I just want my boyfriend to accept that I've played enough Pokemon and that I need a break before I snap. I've been pushed past my limits just because he thought that a break from the game meant I was going to stop playing it. This is not the case; I just want to write, because contrary to popular belief, writing is still an important creative outlet for me.

Does this mean you have no interest in finishing/playing Pokemon Sun & Moon? There;s hope for you yet... Dance

by **Lerena** Sun Dec 18, 2016 11:58 pm

I feel like a card game anime protagonist. In other words, I feel like a huge nerd, but I am a nerd so nothing new here.

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote: Does this mean you have no interest in finishing/playing Pokemon Sun & Moon? There;s hope for you yet...

Our tastes differ in this area. I like Pokemon Sun & Moon. I just can't play too much of it or I'll go insane.

Edit 12/23: If my rant is any indication, I started off the day extremely pissed. Well, my mood did a 180-degree turn at maybe 6 PM or something. I am now much calmer and much happier, but I actually feel kind of weird and I don't know how to explain it.

by **Break String SpinElf** Sun Dec 25, 2016 7:43 pm

Sober and not stuffed full of Brussels sprouts.

Sober and not stuffed full of Brussels sprouts AT A QUARTER TO ONE ON BOXING DAY MORNING!!!

It's actually quite a nice feeling.

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Sun Dec 25, 2016 11:30 pm

Feeling pretty damn good! Christmas went by smoothly without annoying extended family starting trouble. This gathering was calm, peaceful and full of actual Christmas spirit. ABOUT TIME! Feels

by **Lerena** Sat Dec 31, 2016 2:05 pm

Update - 1/1/2017: I feel a lot better. It's a miracle that might not last long, but I'll probably have enough energy to write in the morning. With the art contest over, I can return to my normal drawing schedule...even though I didn't submit anything. Akira Okuzaki

I was going to draw something for the current Mai-Multiverse art contest - just because I wanted to experiment with my art style some more. However, things didn't work out, which means I was unfortunately unable to prepare an art piece for it. Still, the year wrapped up with me feeling a bit more emotional relief.

The original post is under a spoiler tag. I wrote it when I was upset, but I'm not upset anymore.

Yesterday:

by **Luu Sky Sapphire** Sun Jan 01, 2017 10:43 am

Aside from that one thing, I'm feeling great! We had a great celebration last night. :'3 My liver does hate me right now. IT'S A NEW YEAR, YOU GOTTA GET USED TO IT! HAHAHAHAHA!

by **Zweifel Marguerite** Mon Jan 02, 2017 5:38 pm

Endless exhaustion and tiredness

Aside from that, I'm pretty good

by **Lerena** Thu Jan 05, 2017 10:55 am

Annoyed. I have become way too sensitive and it's not depression. It's sensitivity. And there's too much of it in my system. I don't think this is typical sensitive-ness. At least, not for me. I'm wondering if I have a problem and I haven't figured that out yet.

by **ShadowMikoto** Mon Jan 09, 2017 8:08 pm

I don't know how to describe it other than just feeling like an empty container. My classes are going well, I am in as good of health as I can be... so I don't know why I'm feeling this depressed? I can't seem to get into anything that normally gives me energy, like drawing and/or anime. I've just been spacing out all the time. But not in a good "day-dreaming" kind of way. I'm just literally losing concentration and focus on everything. Tried drawing, but nothing is turning out the way I want it. I think I may just need to take some time off to unwind and relax my mind. really?

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