Natsuki with trusting issues. Might be you?

Dead.And.Alive wrote:Hm...No, I'm not a Natsuki because I can trust people and no longer worry about getting hurt. Unless it somebody who could mean more than my own life would hurt me at this point (thus my username I'm dead inside...) I still act as I do I just don't exactly care about me and more of others. So yeah I would trust people, just not enough for it to effect me most of the time.

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:

I don't know if you have a girlfriend or not, but I'm sure she would mean more than your own life? Now there's a Kaichou...

Dead.And.Alive wrote:I'm actually pretty confident that I could say she is more important than myself as a whole. And if that didn't answer your first question as well, yes I do have one. >.<

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:
Eh! *shrugs* Give yourself credit, you think of others first. That's not necessarily a bad thing. One of the things I love about Shizuru, to be honest. ;p

Congrats on becoming a Valkyrie btw!

Dead.And.Alive wrote:Oh, and, it might be considered a "bad thing" due to a certain reason. Yes, you're devoting yourself to others but, it's being extremely selfish at the same time. When you're like that, your protecting what you want, or need. So technically people take it positively at times but there is a negative side. Thus peoples opinion on Shizuru, I hope that didn't change your opinion on her though. o.o

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:You'll have to try harder than that. ^_~

Dead.And.Alive wrote:

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:You'll have to try harder than that. ^_~

Now why would I do that? If Shizuru is as great as we know then there's no reason to. :3

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote::'3 Why must you reply late?

Dead.And.Alive wrote:I think I answered this somewhere? Oh well, I'll say it again. Truth be told, I have a bit of a...struggle you could say. Here it is: letting people know it's their fault (mainly if it's a situation where it's entirely their fault). So guess who wouldn't let her take the blame? I'd forgive her for what she did, although I wouldn't accept it to be wrong. She was desperate, and Natsuki (I) was too dense making me unable to see anything. I wouldn't let anybody or thought in my way, so I didn't see the truth or opportunities in anything whatsoever.

**the real life "Ayano-chan" does that on a daily basis or else she'll feel close minded**

Anyway, point is, I wouldn't "burn bridges." I prefer to build, not break. And either way, if I were to end up doing so I'd end up getting stuck in fire.

Dead.And.Alive wrote:I'm also an intelligent idiot but that's just a bonus (oh the oxymoron's...). I just can't fault somebody because I know it's not their fault entirely. Most cases will have at least two at fault since they lead up to it. But anyway it depends on how you hold up with the weight on your shoulders. I could say I've dealt with a lot, and most likely nothing for some but of course that's only my perspective. Actually there was just two in particular. I'd be fine saying it just not here (perhaps a PM). One last thing, I'll never be 100% sure.

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:Not their fault entirely? Like Nymph, do you also backup in the brainwashing theory that Shizuru was under Reito's control? I dunno! But like you said, it depends on who you are and how you deal with situations. For the record, anything point you can't make here, can be sent via PM. My inbox is always open. :)

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:
I wonder if it ever occured to anymore that Shizuru may also have trusting issues as well? Her personal thoughts and feelings certainly don't reach out to her student fangirls, nor the Student Council. She can't even express them in front of Natsuki, although that's a no brainer, being the very girl she loves.

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:

Aside from Shizuru and her fellow HiME (well, some of them...), Natsuki finds it difficult to trust others. It's true, one shouldn't trust so easily or they could end up getting hurt. At the same time, pushing everyone away isn't good either. You don't know who could benefit your life, it might even be your potential soul mate.

In all seriousness, do you consider yourself a Natsuki type (in the beginning) with trusting issues. Do they relate in any way to people in general, family members or even your ex-lovers? Share here and see if you're a Natsuki.

Natsuki-chan wrote:It doesn't have anything to do with the topic at hand, but for me I think Shizuru has more unresolved trust issues compared to Natsuki. I mean, Natsuki was able to open up to Shizuru, Mai, & the others. But Shizuru kept a mountain of lies even from her most important person-- her HiME status, reason for running as Kaichou, and of course her unrequited love for Natsuki. Thus that façade smile.

Grawrr wrote:I believe I'm a lot like Natsuki in this aspect. I didn't go through what Natsuki did regarding her mother, and father. However, I still have trust issues, and several barriers shielding me from the harshness in this world. My trust issues stem from the unknown of events in my past, friends screwing me over, being bullied 'cause of my sexual preference, and ex-lover who loved to toy with my mental state. She helped me trust people and accept certain events in my past, but that was destroyed. After that, the trust issues were back full force. I am getting better at trusting, slowly but surely. I'm cautious around women because of my last relationship, and men I have always been cautious around, I just can't trust them that easily. I have a hard time letting people in. It's just hard and can be scary, especially if they know the power they have over you. >_<

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:

Grawrr wrote:I believe I'm a lot like Natsuki in this aspect. I didn't go through what Natsuki did regarding her mother, and father. However, I still have trust issues, and several barriers shielding me from the harshness in this world. My trust issues stem from the unknown of events in my past, friends screwing me over, being bullied 'cause of my sexual preference, and ex-lover who loved to toy with my mental state. She helped me trust people and accept certain events in my past, but that was destroyed. After that, the trust issues were back full force. I am getting better at trusting, slowly but surely. I'm cautious around women because of my last relationship, and men I have always been cautious around, I just can't trust them that easily. I have a hard time letting people in. It's just hard and can be scary, especially if they know the power they have over you. >_<

Manipulating people you love is also something that damages relationships. It is that "power" you speak of, something that can be very damaging to a person's trust. As a man myself, I can understand your mistrust in them. It's hard to trust women too when I've had many who betrayed me at the drop of a hat. It doesn't affect me in the long run because I'm strong, but it does make me see eye to eye with your story. We're all like Natsuki Kuga, whether it's a long lasting effect or during a low point of our lives. One thing remains consistent though: There are still good people in this world worth trusting. She learned this, a girl who had a rough life we cannot comprehend. Why can't us?

Grawrr wrote:

You make some very good points oh wise Luu-Sama. *bows*
There are good people, I had the pleasure of meeting some. However, I'm still cautious. I am getting better at trusting though. I think why some of us can't, is because everyone takes time to trust, some people faster than others. Everyone learns in their own pace, if you're not willing to see the good, then you will not.

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:
One step at a time, Grawrr. You can start building your trust in little ways until you can fully accept everyone like Natsuki. Seeing good in everyone is a good way to embrace life. For example, start with me and the rest of us at MM. After all, we're all part of the same team.

Slowly, but surely. :D I shall take your advice Wise Luu-Sama

Luu Sky Sapphire wrote:
Shizuru is an observer. She observes. :3

Natsuki-chan wrote:
...while drinking tea, of course :D

Please, we're having tea right now.